The 'Crush'er..

At age 13 I was a lanky boy with slight traces of a moustach below my nose.I was shy and except during classes, I always wore my sports cap stretched way below my forehead. But guess it didnt help much because of my height. I always noticed the 6th grader girls giggling as they walked past me or the other boys in my class hushing as i walked into the lab or library. The dreaded news had spread like wild fire..

People who thought me too be meek and laid back looked at me in astonishment. Even the peon who rang the bell looked at me and grinned. I could feel a scathing heat penetrating into the back of my shirt as if pricking my body with a thousand needles. I could feel my bones freeze and rattle like dead crumpled leaves.

Would it be a suspension that would follow??

I had dared to pen down my feelings for my crush Ms.Rosylips in class .. And slipped it stealthly into her bag.. But alas.. as my bad luck could have it- It was found by her best friend Ms. Cheekypeeves who promptly declared on top of her voice- see what do we have here. ohh.. a pink heart shaped envelope..soon the entire gang was peeking into what I felt was my heart.. The colours around me faded away and I was pulled into a deep grey periphery. I could see a lifeless corridor leading to the principal's office.. My heart was beating into my mouth..was it shame.. guilt that i felt?? I didnt know..

 ---to be continued..

My posts on Momspresso - The bane called work form Home

It is 3.15 PM and I'm trying to somehow finish all the tasks
 assigned to me for the day.. But then my little one started
wailing in sleep and since she is now almost 3 she is very
much aware even during a nap that mamma is at home.
Now she wouldn't lether nanny take her and put her to sleep,
 she is adamant she wants mamma.. Now an anxious me
again put her to sleep - I had just done that about 1.5 hours
before after which I had some lunchand got back to work.

After losing out on a good 20-25 minutes I sit on my laptop
 again when its time for my father -in laws tea. And since the
 DIL is at home he doesn't want it from the hands of the
maid but wants his D-I-L to have tea with him. ours is not
a traditional or strict kind of household where I have to do
 all kitchen chores and all that for in the in- laws. But then
I get a subtle hint from him "chalo beta, aaj saath mei chai
peete hai." I can very well turn him down saying I have work
 but I know he likes these small chit chats with me and ..
I give in..

By 4:15 i quickly finish tea and enter  my room and lock the
 door all set to conquer all my tasks for the day. In less than
15 minutes the door bell rings and the water purifier servicing
 guy is here.I hear the conversations outside but stay put at
my office task. The guy gets his job done of cleaning the filter
 and soon enough he realized that some part needs a replacement and this 4000K
question now knocks at my door..

Does all this sound familiar?? I have had similar experiences
not only on this one day but more or less everyday i opt to
work from home. May be I don't do it everyday and hence
people act differently on these special days including my
daughter. I hate it when she asks me,  "mamma, why do you
go to office daily??"I have to give her examples like we eat
 food daily, we sleep daily so this is also a daily routine and
then we have the sing song for Saturday Sunday holiday
which makes her very happy and we all eagerly yearn and
wait for weekend.

For women although this WFH is a career saver , i don't think
it is less than a bane.. Anyone agree with me?

The Decision Tree

The road less taken?

Many a times i have wondered..

Agar tum hote toh aisa hota..

Agar tum na hote toh kaisa hota..

This tum can be anyone. There are so many parameters in life which makes each day, each moment the way it is and in the end our whole life shapes up the way it is.

But now i have the maturity and the guts to follow what i really feel is right - the small voice which u kept pushing away to the back of your head - when you always thought the brain needs to take a calculated decision and you kept ignoring your intuitions..

Thankfully age is just a number and in the age of startups and entrepreneurers  where we get inspiring videos and messages on every media that we lay our eyes on - i think atleast this time  we should listen to the intuition , the call from the super conscience / the power that created us and is above us all.. call it god or call me religious - but it gives me utmost pride that every successful person be it Napolian Hill in Think and grow rich to Sri M who remembers his past life - their philosophies all do ring a bell and yes now is a good time to declare - Yes my dreams will come true. I will have the good life I deserve , the petty pitance that i have been crying about is like being penny wise pound foolish..All these last 10-15 years..

And when I practise this mantra to perfection one day I will tell you the secret to embrace this with ease.. And that day will come soon :)

The Long Pause

yaa so the blog marathon went for a toss when I decided to visit hometown with my little cutieA.

It was not less than an adventure travelling with her alone on a train.. But the best or worst part of the journey was at the railway platform when we had to wait for an hour and a half for the train.

It poured so hard and in all the various directions that we ended up clinging on to each other our luggage, my laptop and all-  looking like refugees.
I'm not exaggerating one bit but it was raining cats and dogs and the lightening and thunder were so loud and strong that my little one was so frightened.

However, but for the scare everything was fine and we boarded the train, had dinner, and slept on the side upper berth.. I felt that would be much better than trying to exchange for lower berth with senior citizens and then in the middle of the night not even be able to get up without bumping your head.

So that's how we reached safe and sound to my home town and are now enjoying all the temple festivities and my kids are basking in the love of their grand parents, cousins and aunties.

So till I'm back in town, I am taking a pause.. I don't think the roles of a marathon would allow that.. but well.. if you feel this is not right or even if you feel its right do drop me a note so I can know your thoughts :)

Ayan baby

Day 5 went without any posts. Sharing a pic collage today to show

case what I've been doing to boost our third baby ayan

Kiddie Upgrade

When the elder one and the MIL set off to home town a week before us to attend some functions, my younger one who is 2.5 yrs old was particularly delighted..

She had exclusivity to not only the parents but also to all her elder brothers toys and other booties.

When her own set of crayons which are all in bits and pieces and make sure to make a mark on our walls, were misplaced - she was overjoyed when I handed her over her brothers set - of course used and hand me downs.

But she was more than happy. And started her favorite pass time of peeling the cover off the crayons.

Me: "Miss A, please don't make tiny bits of these too else I will buy a new set for your bro and not you."

And tap came her reply -

"That's fine. you can buy it for him.. I have no problem. I will take his.."

What confidence.. And I couldn't help but laugh.. Kids these days.. are these like the AI versions?? ;)

Leaving you with a pic of my 2 darlings.

Summer Camp Special- Part 1

Kids these days have the option of so many activities for their vacation - be it sports camp, swimming, robotics, crafts , calligraphy and what not.. But is it as enjoyable as playing all day long in the open grounds, climbing trees, aiming at mangoes and jamuns, swimming in the natural water bodies like ponds and rivers, attending temple festivals, and the many wedding or any other ceremonies.. we cannot say for our generation haven't enjoyed the current summer camps and our kids wouldn't know the pleasure of our times.

We used to make snakes and mini mattresses from leaves of coconut trees, suck the nectar from form the banana flower, play for hours with touch me nots and many other such special plants n weeds.

Grandpa always used to put swings for us either in the cow shed or on one of the trees.We would also help granny makes papads and pickles.Those were really good old days.. Sadly we don't realize they are so priceless when we are young. N like old wine these memories get sweeter with time. Don't you agree?

Leaving you with some pics of my kids summer creations

Toscano

I still feel really nice when I have the home to myself. I hear some people really feel sad or bored to be alone in a home but for me its  luxury I get say once in 2-3 years. With 2 monkeys and a mother in law as full time occupants of my home, me n hubby sometimes even think of checking into some hotel so we can get some peaceful sleep.. And ya may be catch up on  some other stuff as well.


Yesterday was one of those days when the 2 elder Ms are packed off to hometown and it was just the hubby and younger M that I had to manage. I had just  boiled the pasta when hubby dear planned to go out for dinner and the mood was for a place with karaoke /live music.Since I was in the mood for pasta we zeroed in on Toscano Italiano :)

The food was lip-smacking.. The sweet potato croquette was yum. My Lo didn't try it as she thought it is hot dog and kept saying i wont eat the dog .:D  There was no live music as the singer was off it seems. So we had to adjust with just candle light dinner with some recorded music. But it sure was a nice evening and a must visit for foodies kinda place:)

One blog a day

This is a 30 day challenge I have taken up - to keep posting 1 blog post a day for the next 30 days.

Its painful to see my blog lying barren and wasted  with no one to care for.. reminded me of beauty and the beast where beauty dreams that the beast is dying in his beautiful garden without anyone to care for , when she is visiting her family.

There are some things which we just need to chase down.. its easy to give up, to settle for less.. but without putting in efforts you will never really know what is your "best self "

On my death bed I don't want to be thinking .. i just wish i had tried a little harder .. to keep up my blog..I'm dying without a blog.. without even a single vlog ha ha

Humour apart, its really nice to read all the posts from the past.. i think it will be a legacy I leave behind to my kids. I hope google would still be free and would keep all this data and share it with the entire world :D

On the 30th day will be a big surprise for all my readers.. not sure if i have anyone here though.. But yes it will be a big bang surprise... So let the count down begin people..

Lots of love and hugss.. this is the real me.. I've been dying to write the last ,many years.. keeping myself under the wraps.. now im gonna make it all explode.. All the words within me will flow like a stream.. i hope not like the hot lava from a volcano though - but if its lava we will make choco lava cake ;)

Untill tomorrow.. cio..

X'mas fun in the Garden City

tipu's summer palace and lal bagh

Tipu's summer palace looked small for a palace and also it was too open with no covered bedroom or any rooms.. had it been destroyed?? or was it meant to be like this.

On second thoughts it made sense... it is summer palace after all.. And we have seen in Bollywood movies how the palaces are always adorned with lots and lots of curtains of all the various royal colors and then like a dream sequence when the wind blows and the chandeliers dance from between the curtains the king and queens romance!!

Lal bagh.. well it has lot and lots of trees spread across 240 acres right in the heart of namma Bangaluru.. And a huge huge lake. The black bamboo, the silk bark tree, the elephant apple, ganesha tree well must say - I didn't know it had so much to offer. The glass palace and fountains are a beauty too. Instead of trying to describe it to you here is a short video.. Enjoy.

The girl child

She is the apple of my eye the love of my life

chattering away like a parrot, the gleam of every eye..

The house feels all empty and barren like a desert

when she is not around to squeal in pure jeer..

She has all the freedom to pull even grandpas hair

The granny promises that the golden rose she will get to wear..

She is like a little princess till the time has flown

Once she finishes school she knows the terrible adult pain

when everyone around her just wants her married and off

she starts doubting that was this true love at all?

She feels like a guinea pig who was adorned for the D day

When she has to be showcased in front of anyone they say

After the bitterness settles she  knows this is the true world

with tears and dreams crushed inside she agrees to tie the knot

Ambition, dreams and wings all come perishing down..

why do u love the girl child if you dont make her ur own?? 

From Ooty to Masinagudi

Ten years back on a cold December night I cuddled with V at Holiday Inn Ooty. That was our honeymoon trip.  After a decade, ooty is not as welcoming as it was. Blame it on the travel boom  in India - every long weekend the highways are over crowded and everybody is celebrating the social media limelight of going on vacations  :)

But thank fully our primary abode - or today's home as my little one called it was not in Ooty but a resort in Masinagudi - a small hill side foggy town  with breathtaking view.

The hot spicy indian buffet dinnet in the cold misty night was really sumptous.. The chicken was tender and juicy and really well cooked and tasty. I savored it in leisure brushing aside my guilt of eating it when trying to be almost vegetarian.. ;)

The road to the resort though is very rickety and can make sure you have a huge appetite for their yummy food when you reach. The morning view is breathtaking too..

Walking across the green mountains with the birds chirping and the chilly winds kissing your face .. it surely is a well deserved break for all city dwellers. There were many large groups dancing to the tunes of "Jimki kammal " and playing musical chair around the camp fire or in front of their pretty cottages.

I remembered the last time we had gone in a large group.Our whole extended family was in Bangalore for my sisters engagement and  we all had gone to the bennarghatta zoo. I'll leave the details for some other time.

Coming back to our Masinagudi trip, it did include a wild life safari in Bandipur forest. Kids enjoyed seeing lots and lots of deer and monkeys. My younger one loves elephants a lot and was too excited to see a baby elephant roaming around with her mom. And of course she had to be named Bandila after the forest she was born in. We also saw many of the kapish monkeys eating peanuts, fruits and what not. CutieA also loved seeing a peacock perched on top of a gate while master V was more interested in the big black bear couple and kept peeking to spot a tiger or leopard.

And finally as is the case with all good things, the vacation ends and we come back to our usual routine back home. I miss the school times when we used to go on summer vacation for 3 months and by the end of it would yearn to come back home. But sigh. guess those are the real luxuries of our times now. You can afford vacations on jet planes or a yacht but lazing around in the mangroves and aiming for guavas for 3 whole months.. I wonder if anybody does that now.. Do drop a comment if you think it is still happening somewhere and i would love to take my kids there.

The phoenix rising..

Its the year 2017..

Things have changed so much.. Who knew Facebook would be the best business marketing platform when i started this blog?

There is watsapp instagram, snapchat, twitter, quora and such a hula boo of apps and software. All my blogger friends from 2006-2007 are going places. I feel like deep shit.. remorse of having fled away to gaga land, living in a cocoon, i felt so alive when i connect , with others fellow bloggers, anyone who has a wavelength to match ..siggh.. well better late than never.  So i hope my blog will stay alive this time around.. wish me luck people!!

yours truely --D

Princess september

After a long time say 4 or 5 years i visited my bog and i say it does feel nice to read how things were then. There is kind of a chilling and calm feeling in your heart when you read - nostalgia.  It made me so happy i penned down these posts.

After a gap of about 5 years - I pen down again this time not as a single women, not as a wife  but as a mother not of only little V but as a mother of two :)
God granted my wish for a beautiful daughter and our princess september is here

Life is not fair, but its good

Publishing one of my posts from the draft folder (from 2011)

A new home, a good job, a chance to be working at home with your cuddly baby!

Well everything sure looks great..

But as the caption goes life is not fair, but its good..

Each day is a fight, an adventure towards fulfilling your goal, your dream to lead a good life..

There are people who for no reason cause trouble for you.

Who for reaons like pure jealousy or ego want to do bad to you.

You have no choice but to ignore them. And to strive forward in your pursuit for happiness.

The faith in god and the optimism keeps one going..

Its hard not to think of the past, hardest for me to stop wondering what and where it all went wrong.. but let go i have to of all the bad things that are past..

Life catches up with everyone as they grow..

I treasure my friends from the past as they fill me with happy memories..

It was great catching up with 2 of my school friends..

With old friends you dont have to pretend, you dont have to watch before you talk.

You can be your own sweet self and become the school kids that you once were..

This festive season when there are colours and sounds of merriment all around, the innocent squeals of my little one brings a curve around my mouth..

GOA again

So off we went to goa again to relive the happy days from last year..
But Sadly for us this time guess all the families/bachelors in india thought of getting happy in Goa and ended up right next to our resort by the calangute beach..
Sigh!!..
But we are clever now arent we...
We took an off on tuesday and had started only on saturday (For once i was thankful that hubby dear has to work now on saturdays too ;))

Kidddo loved the sleeper volvo and from the time we have climbed on two of those huge things, wheels on the bus rhyme has reinforced its grasp on little V.
He was heard singing this particular song even in his sleep last week.
Not only that he has also mastered more than one tune for his favourite nursery rhyme.
So relaxing vacations really do take the stress out of your mind..
Though the tantrums and unreasonable demands from my 2.5 yr old do hype me up sometimes, but on the whole i feel at peace now :)

Now that Goa magic has been consumed to its fullest ,need to seek a better vacation spot may be??
How about maldives guys?? what say?

Random Thoughts

I just came here to pen down some thoughts -

1. People of my wavelength are mostly un glamorously and dont have a very good reputataion in the society ;)

2. I try hard to believe the story that we will be one happy family if we relocate elsewhere, abroad may be.

3. US of course has the happiest memories after marriage even though we did face the most traumatising moments also there.

4.Bipolar disorder is not curable. And i like hallucinating..

5.However highly people recomment me to IBM, i still have glimpses of the gate crashing scene for interview embeded as the emblem of IBM and im not coming back tehre unless u pay me like in 8 digits may be??

6.June /July is a nice time to romance and go around.. unless of course u do not have the entire bandwagon to carry with you.

7.GOA is another place with happy memories and i need to go back there for a longer duration.

8.Its a pity most of my guy friends end up having a crush on me.. I hate losing out on good friends and it becomes awkware later on.

9.I had a day dream that one of my close friends who died few years back gave me a call from someplace.. And he keeps calling me.. Spooky isnt it..

10. Im happy i am writing this post without thinking about what to write and which relative of mine may read this.. I dont give a F&&&.

OOh La La Kerala..

Greeeen is the picture i get when i think of kerala..
And MOnsoons,its just a perfect blend of green and aqua... we need to ignore the brown mesh it creates though ;)
Rains are loved by many and the character it brings out in each city is also soo different.

In Mumbai you have the city rain and in kerala its like the jungle kind of rain.. WIth the thunderstorm and tall trees swaying in the background, its so very different..
Or may be i feel it is so special because i grew up enjoying it..
The entire sky turns pitch black and then the sound of the thunder is like the starting whistle to the voluminous down pour.. And the pelting raindrops are just so fat and delicious... I cannot just describe what it feels like.. And the smell of the sand with the first rains.. I'm sure we all just love that..

Looking forward to spend some time in kerala with the monsoons, after a long long time.. Hope to savour each moment at its virgin best..And not to miss a mention my train journey through the konkan during the monsoons :)

Arranged Marriage

Thanks to facebook and my 500 friends on it, i now get to see some cool videos and links.

There was a marvellous video i saw on a christian wedding where the bride seemed to be having a real fairytale like wedding... I love christian weddings and as in all fairy tales i too have dreams of walking the aisle in a silky flowy gown just the way they do in the movies.. Well dont get me wrong here. I dont intend to ditch my current hubby and hunt down someone else just to satisfy some wild fantasy of mine. But well may be someday may be we would renew our vows in say vegas or something??

Cant show you that vidoe which got me hooked to this idea as its a private one, but
I'll leave you with this video on arranged marriage before i hop off to my fairy/dreamy land to pursue my fancies